I can sit in the middle of the grass
On a cold day
With a tshirt on
And a pair of sweatpants
And stare at my fingers as they turn purple
And the hair on my arms standing up
Yet for some reason it doesn’t bother me
I am suddenly numb to the things that cause me discomfort
I can be on line for coffee and a man suddenly taps my shoulder because I am
Next in line
“sorry” he says.
“No worries that’s fine,” I say
I am suddenly numb to the things that cause me discomfort
A man told me that he liked calling ladies he didn’t know pretty. But they never say thank you.
“Maam you’re beautiful. I mean it. Now what do you say?”
“…uhm. Thanks? I guess.”
I am suddenly numb to the things that cause me discomfort .
I used to leave my home with a full face of makeup
I stopped.
I am suddenly numb to the things that cause me discomfort
I visited his grave a few times.
“Remember death” they say.
And I remembered
But to be honest now I forget
And the tears have dried out
I am suddenly numb to the things that cause me discomfort
He touched my leg
I moved it away and he smiled, so I just nodded.
I am suddenly numb to the things that cause me discomfort
“Fuck your religion man,” I overheard
I didn’t step in. I left.
I am suddenly numb to the things that cause me discomfort
I heard a man say “come home with me” while crossing the street
I turned the volume of my music higher
I am suddenly numb to the things that cause me discomfort
I sat on the grass and let the storm kick in
I wanted to leave.
I stayed. Got soaked.
I don’t know if I was numb to this thing that caused me discomfort but I stayed.