I am in search of words to describe what I am feelingI am not sad nor am I angry
I am not jumping for joy either sadly
I am in search for something familiar in the same people day by day
Yet my search feels so useless
For people change and so have I
I am not nostalgic
I just want to live in the past but as the self I am right now
I do not want to be who I was 5 years ago
But someone like myself right now
I want to tell those who I haven’t spoken in years since they left all the wonderful things I have seen
And all the great things I have learned
I want to speak to them one more time and cherish the exchange of our different minds
I cannot help but feel like taking ten steps back
While my mind is ten steps forward
What is the word to describe all this clutter
Is there a word to describe the feeling when you’re invincible
But your feet still touch the ground?
Or a word to depict the yearning of being in misery
Because during that state you remember what feelings actually mean
It was either sadness or happiness
And now you are faced with a bundle of confusion
And this is what happens when they leave us here
We are the confused ones sitting on this earth
As they wander the skies
And we stretch to the clouds trying to touch their souls
Only to be on our tippy toes
With nothing in our hands for us to show
Where are you? Are you okay?
How long do I have to wait for me to be with you someday?
Obscure sorrows
My mind wanders just like the
way they roam.
Rest in peace loved ones.
Dwell in your eternal homes.